"Rama did not react to harsh words spoken by others. Rama, because of his good bent of mind, felt glad even by a small good deed done to Him and never remembered the many bad things done to him."
But I, on the contrary have exactly the opposite nature. (may be that's why I am attracted to Lord Rama. Opposites attract isn't it?)
People don't even speak harsh to me. But still I react. Even for small things I get disappointed with people and jump into decisions of disconnecting the relationship. They wouldn't even have intended to hurt me. But I do imagine lot of intentions behind their innocent act and create a big fuss about silly things. Also when someone has been good to me for long and disappointed me at one instance again I jump into this disconnecting-relationship decisions forgoing all the good things the person has done to me.
"If some one is disappointed or angry with Rama, Rama identifies the reason and rectifies it instead of being offended by the anger."
Here, I am the one who is getting angry and disappointed. My good hearted friends are the ones who try to identify the reason and rectify it. :(
I have been thinking about this. What is the use of singing His praise all the time and not imbibing any of His qualities? Anyhow, I do console myself that it is only because of singing His praise all the time, some good people come my way and help me realise my mistakes. It is only because of chanting His name all the time that I have been able to be heedful to such people and rectify my mistakes.
Thanks to all my friends out there who have pulled me back into friendship by overlooking my childish behaviour and for still being my friends. (Really, this is not for one person but for a bunch of good hearts out there.)
This doesn't mean that I will never disconnect relationships hereafter. But I will take time, try to understand the person and then decide about whether holding on to the relationship or not. Also, I think I must take enough time before accepting someone as my friend in my heart.